"...Drop the idea of becoming someone, because you are already a masterpiece. You cannot be improved. You have only to come to it, to know it, to realize it.
-Osho
I am working on the realization of the quote above.
I've had a cluttered mind lately, an impatient soul and a sagging spirit. I wish I could say it's all because of the long drawn out 'project' but frankly it's not. We are stalled a bit right now but that's not it .I am finding I lost my zest somewhere along the way for everything else. Where is my concentration?? Where is the artist in me? Where is the enthusiasm for everything else? The answers are all within me I know.....they just seem to be rather elusive right now.
I am not feeling sorry for myself, truly I'm not. What's to feel sorry for.... Life is not bad AT ALL I am loved.. I am not sad. I just seem to have lost my inner spark somewhere and while I've been searching for the answers on how to get it back I've neglected people and connections and my blog and my very being....ART.. That's not like me.. I walk in my tidy studio and walk out again after I have circled the room a few times.That's not like me. I pick up the phone to call a friend and hang it up again before I even dial. That's not like me. Strangely it's this time of year and in Spring when I normally thrive.....the weather is cooler, there's a breeze....blue skies...I love that. But where am I? Curled up inside my head searching the 'the lost and found' department. Maybe it's just a phase - maybe more people than I realize go through this (whatever this is)from time to time. Maybe some just don't talk about it. I don't know. It's a sense of blahness, I am NOT, however, depressed. I'm not. I just need to ride this wave with my eyes on the shore.
I don't like posting this because my posts are so infrequent as it is and then to post some gobbilty goop that sounds like I'm whining makes my skin crawl. So many others are dealing with REAL issues and I'm going on about a funk - it's hideous when you think about it. But the truth is I am nothing if I'm not honest .
funny...... in searching for answers I realized something ........ummm.... "WHAT is the question exactly?"
I may be out of focus right now but I AM working on getting back to a much clearer picture! You can't take a good photograph if all your equipment isn't working right...and right now my inner photos are all a bit blurry.
"Never fear the shadows. They simply mean that there's a light somewhere near by".- Ruth Renkai
So there you go, hopefully I'll be back soon with a bright flash and a clear picture.....and with it will come visits to your blogs and art to show and art to sell and stories to tell and phone calls made and just that general feeling of being connected to myself (and you) again!! And laughing, lots of laughing!
In the meantime I wish you all a tremendous week filled with sparkles and effervescence!
Love,
Lisa
XOXO
(both images are from my home - the bust and the cameras and binoculars were my parents)