I am such a dork! I had posted earlier today wishing everyone a Happy Easter when in actuality it isn't for another week. I swear, some days! Of course I deleted that post.
So instead I will show the new pictures I just received of my ADORABLE great nephew. I CRAVE him and so we are going to set up Skype this weekend(providing my old web cam works) so I can talk to him and he can see and hear me. It's hard living so far away (they are in Texas) so technology is going to make that just a wee bit easier. He's already changing since we were there in February.
He turned 4 months old 3 days ago and is deliciously yummy. Oh those kissable cheeks!
I swear I get a physical reaction of longing mixed with sadness mixed with delight whenever I look at pictures of him. That maternal part of me that was never fulfilled goes in to full swing sometimes and I can feel the tears and the wishes I had had one of my own surface. Being infertile that feeling never goes away no matter how old you are. At this stage it goes in to not having grandchildren as those friends I grew up with are experiencing that now. Trust me, the pangs remain through the years and come out fighting within my heart now and then...... I have a LOT of love to give and I KNOW I would have been a good Mom because I was a GOOD Auntie and now I'll be a good Grantie. (Grantie= Great Aunt combined)
it's all good though.....
Life goes on.
Have a great weekend!
Love,
Lisa
XOXO
