A Whimsical Bohemian: June 2011

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I received a beautiful and "charming" gift recently I want to share but need to take better photos. It was BohoHandyman's birthday this week. Still painting swatches on the living room wall........no art done for some time now. It's just....well you all know how it is......the days run together......interruptions happen and it takes time to complete all the various projects WHILE STILL trying to have time away from them too. It's a real tug of war.

In the meantime is the struggle with weight and it's summer and not wanting to show arms or legs and the tummy is mushy and you can't wear white or your backside would look like a movie screen.......and you have places to go so the angst is high trying to figure out what to wear..and it becomes even more daunting to see a pile of clothes on the bed of rejected items....and the closet is empty.

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Or is that just me?

BUT THEN I THINK......

What if during times of walking through life this way and that... through our busy days and moments of highs and lows we had an audience. And what if that audience were on their feet clapping and cheering? Pumping adrenalin in to your theater of life. Daily performances filled with standing room only.

Lines waiting to see the fantastic, amazing, stupefying, ability to juggle umpteen balls in the air at one time and still cheer even if a couple drop now and then. Who wave lighters creating little pops of light everywhere and stomp their feet in unison even when you aren't looking your best or you're feeling overwhelmed. Who do the wave every time you do something to completion. Who yell "encore" "encore" after each new art piece or creative endeavor or something gets checked off the to do list. What if from the balcony you hear someone yell "can I hug you?" and everyone else begins thunderous applause? Who even through the dull bits, the slow bits, the funny bits, the loving bits, the ordinary bits and the amazing bits the audience put their hands in the air singing "what a wonderful world". (cheesy but sweet)

And even though you don't call your friends or family as often as you'd like or get together with them as often as you'd like...... And even though you've made amazing connections through blogging and other media you sometimes drop that ball too.....the audience KNOWS and they accept it with aplomb because they KNOW you have well meaning intentions you eventually carry out. The place goes wild!

And while you struggle with body image they remind you to look inward at the total person you are - that you have so much to give that does not originate with the size on the label in your clothing. They rise to their feet and pump the air!!

And when you start to compare yourself to other people.....the audience starts to boooooo and hissssss....not against YOU but AGAINST the notion.

Ah and then.......right before you go to bed they just scream "good night, sweet dreams"....then they go wait in line again for you to get up the next morning and over coffee they start chanting your name.........because they want to see you, the real you........all the time........any size, any mood, any day, any time.

Maybe you wouldn't SEE them (I am not talking reality show here) but you would SENSE them and it would remind you you aren't alone in the way you feel sometimes. Good, bad or indifferent. Or perhaps there is no audience really, maybe it's just YOUR ability to tell yourself that you are worth every price of admission.